About me

Scars run through my soul
They’re present in this hole
I try to live a new life
But on my skin I see the tracks of the knife
My scars remind me that the past is real
And I know, they will not heal
They are so present, in my soul like on my outside
I’m sick of hide
Hide myself, hide my scars, hide my past
This world is much to fast
I try to be happy, try to forget
But I can just regret
So often I remember of all
And these times I feel like if I even fall
All the old feelings surface
You can read them in my face
But the game starts a new time
I try to seem like everything’s fine
And a new time I hide
I start a new fight
So often I can’t understand my feelings
I can’t find the meanings
I feel like crying
But I’m shying
I’m scared to show like I feel
I try to be like steel
I long to return to the time I was emotionless
Cause my feelings now are senseless, just a mess
But it’s past, no sense to look back
I know that I have a lack
Although of all I have to look forward
Although I need a guard
As a safeguard against my scars

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Is anybody here with me?

Is there somebody?
Somebody listen to me?
No!
I’m alone

Is there somebody?
Somebody who is looking at me?
No!
I’m alone

Is there somebody?
Somebody who promise me
- Not to leave me alone?
No!
I’m alone

Is there somebody?
Somebody who’s saving me?
No!
I’m alone

Is anybody here with me?
Listen at me?
Looking at me?
Promise me?
Saving me?

No!
Course I’m alone!

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Never say I love you
if you don't really care
Never talk about feelings
if they aren't really there
Never hold my hand
if you are going to break my heart
Never loock in my eyes
if all you do is lying
Never say hello
if you really mean good-bye